what can i do next ?

Tuesday, July 7, 2009 ; 8:30:00 PM♥

was it the right choice ?

today seemed to be a good day .. only until the evening ..

it should be a good day today ..
because today , is our 4th moth anniversary ..

during the afternoon , i was playing basketball with my generation 2 and 1 , eileen , mandy , cheryl , and phoebe .. it was fun .. till he told me that his parents found out that there isnt school yesterday .. they were really mad .. he might be 'dead' and his phone might be confiscated for good .. and im really worried bout it .. though he told me not to .. i couldnt contact him .. coz he told me not to reply .. and kor told me to just trust him and dont worry .. but i cant .. i worry bout him everyday .. though nobody knows , but its true .. and kor still tell me that those are the obstacles that im going through .. but the obstacles are getting harder and harder to go through .. i've always been trying to hide all the sadness inside me .. but it seems harder each time im face to face with the obstacles ..

i cant give up .. i cant aford to .. if i do , both parties will suffer.. i dont want both of us to suffer .. its really very hard to face the obstacles .. even harder when we cant face it together .. i cant talk to him .. cant communicate with him .. how are we supposed to face it together when we are not in contact with each other ?

there are really too much obstacles to goo through .. one right after another .. i dont know how long i can last with the pain .. its getting more and more painful each time .. i really need his help to get over it .. i dont want him to know that im sad .. but its really harder and harder to hide it from him .. i cant smile properly anymore .. even if i could , it would not last long .. im trying not to hide anything from him .. but i cant tell him .. because i cant even contact him .. though kor is trying to help me , but im also giving my very best to get through those obstacles .. and trying to spend more time with him in school .. because we cant spend time together after school , i want to spend time with him during recess .. but i cant tell him now ..

i hope he reads it by today , so that we can spend time during recess together ..

Friday, July 3, 2009 ; 9:30:00 PM♥

was it the right choice ?

hi people !! today was quite an okay day .. i went to yenpin's house for literature project .. took a short while .. then got people need to go home .. so i went to block 108 to find my generation 1 and 2 family !! heeeh ^^ they were at the playing ^^ then when i arrived , they all came to hug me ! so nice right ? hehehehe ^^ we had loads of fun and took some pictures ! im not gonna waste time uploading photos , but , still , i had loads of fun !