what can i do next ?

Sunday, August 30, 2009 ; 5:53:00 PM♥

was it the right choice ?

nowadays , there are really many 'discouragments' in my life .. not mentioning any , but .. maybe some people may know .. thursday , friday , saturday , and even today , sunday .. he .. .. mostly , is the cause of the situation , then to the cause but of my sadness .. it isnt eitirely his fault .. i have a part in it too .. coz it takes two hands to clap . and things that happen to him , are really bad .. i cant blame him of anything though .. not that i can do anything .. i cant help him .. i feel useless ..

Wednesday, August 26, 2009 ; 9:51:00 PM♥

was it the right choice ?

these few times .. i really feel very discouraged .. of everything that has happened .. today .. yesterday .. the day before .. and more .. us .. them .. and lots more .. i just proclaimed single , today .. during dnt .. too irritated by the guys .. so just proclaim single , and everything was solved .. but .. recently , the guys in my class are starting to treat me better in a way or another .. especially jeremy .. suddenly very nice to me .. so not used to it .. ugh .. just like that lorh .. miss him so much .. just a little more to go .. thats what i always say right after i finish talking to him on the phone with him , after he hangs up .. i got no other source of support in it anymore .. though im waiting for time to come .. where everything would be back to how it started perfectly ..i've lost all courage to fight another battle in me anymore .. where can i goet mt support back again .. the phrase " absence makes the heart grow fonder " is not working on me anymore .. im trying not to lose faith in it .. im trying to have more confidence in it .. but how can i do it with everything thats happening now ? im really lost somehow ..

Friday, August 14, 2009 ; 10:52:00 PM♥

was it the right choice ?

im little angry over here , coz mandy , didnt link me after she changes her template and everything .. its so super saddening .. and feel left out .. seriously .. even now , those softballeres that i hang out with , mandy phoebe , cheryl , not counting eileen coz she sec 4 alr , are all pitchers .. and im the only one who is an outfielder , rightfield someore , the slackest posithion out of all the other positions .. i think next time i better be reserve and be a good scorer ..

i really reel left out almost everywhere ..

; 10:18:00 PM♥

was it the right choice ?

sorry for not updating for such a long time .. sorry , but to summarize , many things happened .. happiness , and heartbreaks , one of the happiness is to know that he is always alright , heartbreaks , i should not mention though .. before more heartbreaks come .. there is still anger too , my mum , and this teacher , cant say irritating coz she's not , thenit should be , a little interfering .. i guess .. but till now , still okay , nothing major coming on xD maybe tests ? and i recently flunked my chinese test , kinda badly , 9 out of 25 .. quite sadd right ?

math too .. i failed the sets thing , with the venn diagram .. 4 out of 10 .. nearly passed .. *sob sob* but nvm , i'll try harder for the next test , i flunked geography too , 7 or 9 out of 20 .. i cant remember clearly .. should be 9 bahs .. history dunno yet .. english dont have test .. science .. i just took the test on wednesday .. dunno how it is , but i hope i will pass .. coz science is my strongest subject ever ..