Saturday, September 12, 2009 ; 11:48:00 AM♥
was it the right choice ?
me:
-ah gong ..
eileen:
-haha yeah?
me:
-i very sad ..
eileen:
-why?
-kai boon?
me:
-yarhs ,,
-.
eileen:
-i know it him..but i donno wat happen
me:
-go my blog read the most recent 2 posts ..
eileen:
-ok.
eileen:
-hmm.
me:
-..
eileen:
-well, you know i cant give much advice on relationship problem
eileen:
-but, life is really unfair in the sense.
eileen:
-even though he hug your good friend, it may not because he like her or wat.
eileen:
-and, don say i this ahgong wanna break up relationship.
-if you dont trust him, wat the point of this relationship??
me:
-i know. its not that i dont want to trust him
-but .. things like this , its really hard to ..
eileen:
-i know it not easy to trust him
but ,i think both of your need time to cool and calm down
me:
-trying to .. but .. i cant ..
eileen:
-just relax la..
me:
-i really need some time to talk to him .. but he is always not available ..
eileen:
-try to find time.
me:
-i dont know lehhs.. theodora trying to get him out after school on monday .. so that we can talk ..
eileen:
-tell theodora tat you need some time with him
me:
-she is helping me to get him out , the let me have a good talk with him ..
eileen:
-than tat good wat.'
me:
-but then im just afraid of the worst ..
eileen:
-face it.
-you still have to face it no matter wat.
me:
-i know i have to face it ..
me:
-i dont want to run away from it ..
eileen:
-tat good.
-just face it even if it the worst.
me:
-even though its good , but facing the worst will bring loads of hurt t me ..
me:
-im afraid of being hurt again ,,
-after so much ..
eileen:
-i know this feeling of being hurt suck. but the longer you drag, the longer hurt you get.
me:
-im really afraid of getting hurt again .. after having going through so much with him ..
-i dont want to get hurt ..
eileen:
-hmm.
me:
-but even though i went through so much with him , i still end up getting hurt ..
eileen:
being hurt is normal in reletionships
me:
-though normal ..
-but its too often ..
-its like strangling me ,
-and i cant breathe ..
that is what had just happened .. ahgong eileen's conversation with me ..
dont know whether it will help me through ..