Wednesday, April 28, 2010 ; 6:00:00 PM♥
was it the right choice ?
hello !!! i know it has been a very long time ever since i;ve posted.. 3 months ? around there bahs .. it haa been a very stressful period . new work .. more work .. and more work .. piles of work to complete .. i still miss him .. honestly .. still trying to forget him .. its really hard .. i didnt sign up for the stress and torture .. everytime i see him .. i feel the sadness .. whats more i see him everyday .. other than the weekends .. he still wants to sort things out with me .. he wanted to patch up .. i dunno what i can do .. he says he needs me .. i know he's stressed .. but i have a feeling i'll lose him again if i agree to patch up with him .. i dont want another heartbreak .. i dont want to cry everynight to bed again .. i really dont know what i can do now .. when i see him , i'll think of his request .. i'll feel guilty .. i want to do something for him .. but i cant . he keep saying that he needs me .. but he cant promise that i wont get another heartbreak .. and .. i dont want to lose the connection i used to have with him ... all the memories .. i dont want to lose them .. his voice keeps playing in my head every now and then .. i really dont know what to do now .. should i patch up with him ? or not ? i dont know .. i really dont know .. i cant ask mandy or phoebe for help .. i cant ask anyone .. i dont know what to do ..